everything they had-

Pack-it-in to one last time

Make it just enough

Running of the gauntlet

Making you so tough

Why'd you push the boundaries

and cause yourself this pain?

Why'd you leave so quietly

and stand out in the rain?

They gave you time

They gave you space

But it's never quite enough

They gave you everything they had

And still you treat them rough

They all reach out their hands for you

and cradle you with care

But you rally and rail against them

and tell them they don't care

They gave you everything they had

time and love and space

but you laughed and spat and kicked up dust

You threw it in their face

storm-

spinkle sparkle

flicker flash

blinded by the lighting

caught up in the crash

of joy and more

and setting store

by things that make you smile

and twisted rings

or fancy things

amusements for a while

come join in the hegemony

let's make a great cacophony

before the joy is gone

at the edges of this storm

spinkle sparkle

flicker flash

blinded by the energy

run the final dash

all there is-

and in that moment

the shadows become fuzzier

the lines deeper

and all the worry of the world descends on my shoulders

if you love me

cross everything that you have

fingers, toes, ankles and knees

I need all the luck you can muster

but isn't it the same every day?

isn't luck the only difference between

a good day and a bad?

A joy and a sorrow?

so throw salt over your shoulder

bless yourself

hold the rabbits paw

and cross your fingers for me

I want it all

I want more

lost & found-

sometimes i lose my mind

sometimes i lose my soul

sometimes i feel left behind

but it's not for naught you know

so i hide away with teacups

i hide away with pain

i hide away with sorrow

until i'm found again

then tea and sympathy rain on me

and sponges filled with jam

and tiny cucumber sandwiches

because that is who i am

because-

Reality seeps in

gets under my skin

light of my life

it's not you, its me

start again if you can

reach out for my hand

light of my life

we'll run free

It's not what it should be

it's not what it was

it can't be this way

forever because

we promised our lives

we were young hopeful brides

we have so much to offer

right now and because

swift-

Bend and break

twist and sigh

flash of quick lightening

corner of the eye

three-hundred-and-sixty

from white to black

doubletake-talking

whip-lash whip-cracked

yes sir, no sir

and three bags full

decision made quickly

red rag to a bull

weigh it up, weigh it in

and never enough

fork in the road again

ain't life tough

fresh-

-for baby Willow Asha Bowman. Born 19.10.09. Welcome.

New life

springs in the night

new life

struggles in the dawn

new life

cries in the morning

what glory is this

we have born

Welcome

to the shadows

welcome

to the light

welcome

to the family

a light that shines

so bright